Successes and Failures

"It is not the critic who counts; not the person who points out how the athlete stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.  The credit belongs to the one who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; because there is no effect without error and shortcomings."     Theodore Roosevelt edited by me.

I lost 40 pounds this Summer.  What a challenge!  I wrote down everything I consumed -every corn chip, every leaf of kale.  Man, I have been so proud of myself as I've struggled with weight issues for about 8 years now!!  Then on Monday I went in to get my bloodwork done and found out almost immediately that my cholesterol and LDL levels have risen to an all time high.   My cholesterol comes in 325 mg/dl.  (standard range is anything UNDER 239 mg/dl.)

OK, so I just have to fix it, right?  Right!  But the interesting thing is that this little tidbit of information hit me EMOTIONALLY like a ton of bricks.  Partly, I had this sense of immense well-being because of the weight loss.   I don't actually feel any different physically than I did on Monday, but my sense of well-being has vanished.  I am upset by the numbers -what they mean.  I feel defeated. 

This will never do.

So I woke up 2 days ago and decided that I needed to put my Bad-Ass Suit on.  I have scoured the internet for information on how to reduce my cholesterol without going on artificial statins.  I am making a choice today on which kind of personal training I want to partake in, have gotten the right foods for this, ordered a natural statin that is arriving Tuesday and bottle of Co-Q10 which arrived this morning.

I am 99% certain my doctor will tell me to get on Big Pharma statins, but I want to try to beat this the natural way, and I know I can do it!   I am going to suggest she let me try for a month and a half to 2 months.  If there is no change in my numbers at the end of that time, I will concede and join the dark side.  But I have got to try this first, because yes: I AM bad-ass....iamiamiamiamiam....